Goodbye Honey...You broke my heart, I will kill myself tomorrow

A friend said goodbye to me last night on yahoo messenger. I asked him where he’s going. He told me that he’s going to his true world, the death. I inquired him, suicide? He told me yes.

He wanted to kill himself. He said that he has played with his heart and couldn’t stand it anymore. He told me that after met me (Ooops don’t ask me what I have done, OK….I never met him) he decided not to marry and spend his wealth for the poor.

Fortunately he was not sitting next to me. He couldn’t see me smiling….God please don’t let me deal with another drama queen. I have dealt with many attempted suicide cases in my professional life. Some cases were pretty silly, but doesn’t mean I fancy seeing another one.

I asked him how he wanted to kill himself. He said through poison. I asked whether or not he had prepared his death well, and he said he had. I said nothing but GOODLUCK.

I know, for they, who never dealt with this drama, would think that I am a cruel heartless bitch. But hey guys….I have been trained to be a counsellor for years. I dealt with many people who have tried to kill themselves. Do you think someone who really wants to end his/her life will tell others his/her plan?

If you suffer and want to end your life, what would you do? I doubt you will tell others if you really want to kill yourself. Why? Because someone will be around you and take a good care of you (oh OK…it only happens during first attempt, after that people will know and don’t bother with it anymore.) Indeed…this attention is exactly what is wanted.

On the other side, they, who really are depressed and want to end their lives, would isolate themselves. No suicidal stories. They just toy with the idea to end their misery, and ta daa….they plan and do it. Oh yes…this is more terrifying. You don’t know anything, and in a sudden someone you know commits suicide.

Which one is more common? Sure the first one, and it is also (well…sorry) a bit annoying. Some people would label them as manipulative (let’s talk about it later). These people do many things to get attention from others…well who doesn’t like the attention? I do like get attention. Don’t you like it too? But hey….if someone cries 5 days in a week. Telling you every time (s)he is hospitalized, and so proud of being sick (yes….some people use this defence mechanism to get attention)...then what would you do?

I am not saying that they don’t need help. They do need help, but sometimes a smack can be a help too.

Oops….no violence please.