If Only I Have the Courage to be with You

I watched two movies this week, one is A Good Year and another one is Shadows in the Sun.

A Good Year is played by Russel Crowe, a cold cruel smart banker (just don’t replace the b part in banker with a w) in London, however I think Mr. Crowe is more like a dummy instead of a smart bastard (will you forgive my word, please). His uncle departs and leaves him his vineyard in France, so he goes to France and arranges to sell it. Then a woman comes and acclaims that she’s his uncle’s daughter (no…she doesn’t want that vineyard, she only wants to know her daddy). At that place too, Russel Crowe (since I cannot recall his role), meets a beautiful cold woman and he falls in love to her. This woman actually doesn’t want to get involve to any relationship, her husband hurts her badly, and makes her avoid men. For her, a night with Russel Crowe is just another one night stand without any future, so she will not be brokenhearted. Then miracle comes, Crowe writes a letter as if it is written by his uncle showing that he has a daughter, and it means Crowe gives the vineyard to his ‘cousin’ (she’s a woman, sure she finds it out later), even more, Crowe leaves London and moves to Provence to be with the woman he loves. Happy ending.

The other movie, Shadows in The Sun, is played by some actors I don’t know. It’s quiet funny for me, and I like the Catholic father in this movie. This movie is about an editor who is sent down to Italy from (again) London to persuade a great writer who is blocked and hiding from the world. This great writer stops writing after his wife passed away and he scares to write. He just scares of failures. After some troubles, the editor can get along with the writer and awakes the writer to start writing again. Where is the romance part? Sure…it’s about the editor and the writer’s daughter. The writer’s daughter wants to have a wonderful memory with that editor, so she sleeps with him once. She thinks it will be fine, she knows that the editor one day has to return to London. Indeed, he returns to London. On a train, the editor meets an old woman with a bird, she asks him to fly when they see the writer’s daughter catches him up mounts on a stallion, followed by another stallion. Then the editor pulls emergency break (so…unreal, don’t do this, you will be fined in real world), departs from train and jumps on stallion. They kiss and live happily ever after.

The same thing here is that both men leave their “lives” (London in this case), works, and so on, and move to another place to be with someone they love. I just can’t understand it. In real world, how many percentages of men (and women...and something in between) are willing to do this? Leave their works, houses, lives, friends, comfort zones to be with someone is absolutely not a small decision. I don’t know what I would do if I were in this position. Will I leave my comfort zone? Will I leave my nest, work, life, friend, family behind to be with someone? Is he that worthy? What if he will hurt me? What if he doesn’t want it? What if he doesn’t love me as much as I do? What if I will get bored? What if I don’t get a good job there? What will I do then? I may not dare to leave my comfort zone, the way I don’t dare to ask him to sacrifice his life. Maybe I just simply am a selfish girl, or maybe it just shows how cowardice I am.

Maybe I have to many “what ifs” in my mind. Or maybe romance is only on movie, not in real life.