Late Night in Bangkok
A night in Bangkok
Here I am, sitting at my balcony. Looking at the night sky. No stars tonight. Where did those stars go? I saw stars almost every night when I was a kid, wondering how it would be if I wear one of those stars as a pendant. I thought it would be lovely. I love stars, skies, clouds, jungle and seas. I was lucky, had these all when I was a kid. Oh well I don’t want to write about stars now.
I want to write on drama. Seiji asked me, ‘Evie..are you a DQ?’ So I asked Seij back…what DQ was….dull question? Doomed queen? Delicate queer (No offence..it’s just a joke)? Damned quiz? Sure it was Drama Queen. So I asked him back since I doubted the existence of non-drama queen/king.
What is drama queen? I am not sure….well for my political correctness I prefer to call it drama royal (are there anybody can give me a better idea how to replace this queen part to be more politically correct???).
Who doesn’t like receive attention? Hello….excuse me…I am writing my blog, and I wrote the address, so anyone can see it. Aren’t I an exhibitionist? Aren’t I a person who wants to receive attention from others? Do these make me to be a drama queen?
I think these drama persons simply need more attention. They express their needs for affection, and insecurity at the same time. Shame on them.
Despite of the term drama queen/king/royal---whatever, there is another term. Manipulative. Manipulative persons would manipulate others to gain what they need, attention for instance. Freud would explain it by using his bloody unconsciousness theory. Foucault would mention the power and agency I guess. What about me? I pity this kind of person.
I understood that we, human, need affection. Some, like me, are lucky. I am surrounded by wonderful people. No objection for this, but then also million of people who are not as lucky as I am.
What would happen if my mama did not call me love and kiss me any moment she could? What would happen if my papa did not shower me with his love? He went to Jogja from Jakarta almost every week when I moved to Jogja 10 years ago. He rang me, at least twice every single day. What would happen if my sister was not the most wonderful sister in the world, who gave me a wonderful brother in love and the cutest angel, lil Putra? Then there have been hundreds more…my granny, my friends, teachers, pets, bla bla bla…without them, I might turn to be a whining person.
No more drama please. Life is already complicated, why do we make it worse? I understood that one needs attention, but drama? Ouch…
Here I am, sitting at my balcony. Looking at the night sky. No stars tonight. Where did those stars go? I saw stars almost every night when I was a kid, wondering how it would be if I wear one of those stars as a pendant. I thought it would be lovely. I love stars, skies, clouds, jungle and seas. I was lucky, had these all when I was a kid. Oh well I don’t want to write about stars now.
I want to write on drama. Seiji asked me, ‘Evie..are you a DQ?’ So I asked Seij back…what DQ was….dull question? Doomed queen? Delicate queer (No offence..it’s just a joke)? Damned quiz? Sure it was Drama Queen. So I asked him back since I doubted the existence of non-drama queen/king.
What is drama queen? I am not sure….well for my political correctness I prefer to call it drama royal (are there anybody can give me a better idea how to replace this queen part to be more politically correct???).
Who doesn’t like receive attention? Hello….excuse me…I am writing my blog, and I wrote the address, so anyone can see it. Aren’t I an exhibitionist? Aren’t I a person who wants to receive attention from others? Do these make me to be a drama queen?
I think these drama persons simply need more attention. They express their needs for affection, and insecurity at the same time. Shame on them.
Despite of the term drama queen/king/royal---whatever, there is another term. Manipulative. Manipulative persons would manipulate others to gain what they need, attention for instance. Freud would explain it by using his bloody unconsciousness theory. Foucault would mention the power and agency I guess. What about me? I pity this kind of person.
I understood that we, human, need affection. Some, like me, are lucky. I am surrounded by wonderful people. No objection for this, but then also million of people who are not as lucky as I am.
What would happen if my mama did not call me love and kiss me any moment she could? What would happen if my papa did not shower me with his love? He went to Jogja from Jakarta almost every week when I moved to Jogja 10 years ago. He rang me, at least twice every single day. What would happen if my sister was not the most wonderful sister in the world, who gave me a wonderful brother in love and the cutest angel, lil Putra? Then there have been hundreds more…my granny, my friends, teachers, pets, bla bla bla…without them, I might turn to be a whining person.
No more drama please. Life is already complicated, why do we make it worse? I understood that one needs attention, but drama? Ouch…
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