In the World of Nothingness

I walk away leaving you. I do not want you to see me crying. I don’t cry, I don’t even bite my lower lip to stop my tears. No I don’t. My heart is broken, but I am happy. I am free as a bird, fly high up above. Nothing scares me anymore. Pain is meaningless yet enjoyable. Knowing that I suffer pain reminds me that suffering is part of human’s lives. My body is my prison. My anger, jealousy and hatred inhibit my unity with the Higher Force in this universe. There is no pain either happiness, all is equally meaningless and meaningful at the same time. All is relative, nothing is absolute anymore but the Ultimate one whom I kneel on to.

It is time for me to metamorphose, I enjoy sorrow the way I enjoy happiness. Through the sorrow I know what happiness is. Through the loneliness I feel love. Through hunger I know what full is.

Some would see me depressed, some would see me free. Who is the right one? Does one really care?