Sweet Revenge
You came, with the same perfume you had before. The same perfume you had few years back when you approached me. You came to me with the same scent when you said that you loved me. I smiled and asked,”F (beep…I don’t want to be suspected advertising some perfume)? Smelled good.”
Yeah, once I loved you more than I could imagine. I never loved anyone the way I loved you (ssshhhh it’s all past tense). I had the most beautiful love in my life for you. You completed my life. I couldn’t imagine what it would be living without you beside me. You were the only person I dreamed about. You were the only person I wanted to live with. I couldn’t think about someone else but you.
You gave me strength. You taught me how to cry. I felt special when I was with you. Until that day…you wrecked all my dreams, love and hopes. Yeah…those stormy days. When you walked away from my life and left me alone. Hurt. I cried wanting you come back to me. There was nothing, you laughed at me. I didn’t even know what I did wrong to you. Have I hurt you? Why did you hurt me badly? Why did you let her treat me that way? I was the one who held you tight when you were sick. I was the one whom you said completed your life. Was it all bullshit?
I cried. I cried and I cried. I was sad. I was angry. I was jealous. I was furious. I was scared. I was scared of losing you, and I lost you. Or perhaps I never had you.
It took time for me to heal that deep wound after you left me. I spent years to accept what you did to me and learned to laugh at my stupidity.
You came by to see me for a while. I smiled. You were still you. You still had the same style. I assumed you still had similar job like when you left me. I realized how lucky I was. You came to my life to help to grow. You and your women (ah…too many women when you were with me…I should open my eyes wider on that time, sigh I was too naïve. Love blinded me) encouraged to grow, well in a unique way. You showed me how it was to be broken hearted. She encouraged me with her ravage (wait…still don’t understand, wasn’t it me who should be furious???? Woman…I didn’t understand you, and still don’t).
Years went by. I still love you, as a person not as a lover. No, you are not my soul mate. Sorry but I deserve a better person, a person who knows how to love himself and others. I don’t want any drama anymore. Nah…that’s enough.
Goodbye love. Wish you all the best. Wish you happy with your mediocre life.
Jogja, July 14, 2006
Yeah, once I loved you more than I could imagine. I never loved anyone the way I loved you (ssshhhh it’s all past tense). I had the most beautiful love in my life for you. You completed my life. I couldn’t imagine what it would be living without you beside me. You were the only person I dreamed about. You were the only person I wanted to live with. I couldn’t think about someone else but you.
You gave me strength. You taught me how to cry. I felt special when I was with you. Until that day…you wrecked all my dreams, love and hopes. Yeah…those stormy days. When you walked away from my life and left me alone. Hurt. I cried wanting you come back to me. There was nothing, you laughed at me. I didn’t even know what I did wrong to you. Have I hurt you? Why did you hurt me badly? Why did you let her treat me that way? I was the one who held you tight when you were sick. I was the one whom you said completed your life. Was it all bullshit?
I cried. I cried and I cried. I was sad. I was angry. I was jealous. I was furious. I was scared. I was scared of losing you, and I lost you. Or perhaps I never had you.
It took time for me to heal that deep wound after you left me. I spent years to accept what you did to me and learned to laugh at my stupidity.
You came by to see me for a while. I smiled. You were still you. You still had the same style. I assumed you still had similar job like when you left me. I realized how lucky I was. You came to my life to help to grow. You and your women (ah…too many women when you were with me…I should open my eyes wider on that time, sigh I was too naïve. Love blinded me) encouraged to grow, well in a unique way. You showed me how it was to be broken hearted. She encouraged me with her ravage (wait…still don’t understand, wasn’t it me who should be furious???? Woman…I didn’t understand you, and still don’t).
Years went by. I still love you, as a person not as a lover. No, you are not my soul mate. Sorry but I deserve a better person, a person who knows how to love himself and others. I don’t want any drama anymore. Nah…that’s enough.
Goodbye love. Wish you all the best. Wish you happy with your mediocre life.
Jogja, July 14, 2006
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